Saturday, May 14, 2016
Looking Outside is making me more gloomy. Thunderstorms, lightning, rain and the gusty wind is about to burst in the horizon. That doesn't set well with me especially when the call of Nature visits more often than my heart expects. But then again I'm forgetting that Texas has bipolar weather.
I know I'm not alone to feel deeply about the nuances, the interruptions, and the daily dragons that don't want to go away in our walks of life. We don't really know who are the ravening wolves under the sun. In Matthew 7:15 KJV says that "Beware of false prophets which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves." It doesn't account for seemingly anymore. It's the hard reality of life that slaying these dragons like nicotine addiction, abusive use of alcohol, obsessive use of credit cards, imprisoning pleasure of pornography & illicit relationships--just to mention the common perpetrators in the core of mental health is self-decaying... I believe that the end result of these addictions is the pangs of depression. Or could it be that there's a genetic imbalance that predisposes us more to clinging to unhealthy solutions? If there are countless of us who are more vulnerable and susceptible to the valleys of life, the survival to going to the mountain top is very slim & murky.
Look at how we easily fall into the trappings of the devil's scheme. Satan reverberates the sound of hopelessness and condemnation into our minds. Planting that seed of doubt is the devil's advocate and we believe coercive ploy. I may not have been a victim of nicotine, alcohol & drugs and always have been a good steward of my finances but my nemesis is the lack of emotional intelligence. I don't always gravitate on my gut feeling. I'm indecisive when it comes to following my first instinct. And these promptings, when they're ignored will be costly especially if it's the Holy Spirit put that in your conscience. I don't know which one is more damaging or stupid. Having a double-minded soul or a hopeless drunk devoid of spiritual wisdom or a halfway devout Christian who couldn't surrender fully to the will of God. I bet, the choice would be the latter.
I know I haven't blogged and I'm guilty of professing my craft as a writer. I had allowed outside & earthly forces to consume me to a point where I had forgotten my love affair in writing. It shouldn't serve as an intellectual pursuit but rather a special kind of spiritual stance where words breathe from the wellspring of my heart and not what my flesh wants to feel...
I am imploring encouragement to myself and others who are at the vortex of hopelessness to remain persistent and determined to hang in there in difficult circumstances. The emotional support of a loyal friend, the nuclear family that God blessed us and the book of life that holds all of the ways of God, all of the grace, mercy and love of our Heavenly Father God Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I may falter and loose the grip of His will for my life but the truth of His promises in the Bible cling more now than before.
Here are some Scriptures that I immerse myself whenever I'm down to the wire of temptation.
Isaiah 40:31 KJV
They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 55:9 KJV
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
All of the mysteries hovering us shall be put in the background. We have to do our part to know Him more through Prayer, reading His Word and ask Him what ministry would He put us in His church. Yup. that's it! Still learning...
Sunday, May 1, 2016
Isn't awful not to be able to write because you're lacking the so-called "muse'' or inspiration?
Or that you're experiencing dry spill in areas where you thought you could go beyond these circumstances? And the result is plain laziness & boredom.
Thus, it made me realized that writing isn't a primal passion. Because if it is, then it should be the driving force to awaken that inspiration that is supposedly within me.
Lately, I have a lot of random heartfelt sentiments and even visions on how to encapsulate these thoughts and put them in pages. That too didn't come out right for they faded before my eyes. They couldn't seem to stick.
So, I wish for this month that May brings revelations and marvelous serendipities into my days and yours. And I will savor it!